Happy Sunday Kittens. Where is everyone? Wow- I've been like in a FOG of crazy life stuff throughout November, and I am so behind in reading your blogs people- but today, I noticed, a ton of peeps are just MIA over the holiday weekend! What's UP with that!! :-) It's cool because I know most of you are still kicking butt and taking names.
Myself included of course.
**I wanted to let you know- I've gotten a TON of emails on two topics lately. One of them is the whole "Eat Stop Eat" fasting concept, how it helped me with my food "issues" and the other being motivation- getting it, keeping it, spreading it. I promise to do some video answers/rambling on these topics this week, since I cannot write back to everyone personally. So stay tuned.
Speaking of motivation and such- I'm one week away from the Vegas Rock n Run 1/2 Marathon. Holy Crap. Last night, and actually for the past week or so, I'd been having thoughts of "Should I?" going through my head. Let me clarify- it wasn't about running in general. I'm HOOKED. It also was not about running 1/2 marathons or "races" in general. It was about THIS one. It was about the fact that it is my first big "race" (is that what to call it?? race?) and I have NOT been able to stay the course with my training. Really- the month of November was a BLUR. And I'm not beating myself up about it at all- with a birth in the family, a death in the family, complications with both mom and baby after the birth, a 6 day trip to Vegas, and then Thanksgiving- yea. I've been kind of STRETCHED and not in the happy Yoga way.
But, after my inner Amy talked to me (and I texted Amy for quite a while yesterday of course. She loves it when I do that, and so does her husband. For realz. haha), I realized that it was FEAR that was entering into my thinking again.
I've told you kids, it is FEAR that can ruin us. I know this is true in my life. Dig deep and figure out what's going on in your mind. More often than not it is fear. Fear of what someone will think if you say this or that. Fear of people judging you, people laughing at your, people not agreeing with your choices. Fear that you won't do as well as you want to. Fear of worst-case scenarios that rarely happen. Fear of failing.
Isn't it funny how we never fear the BEST-CASE-SCENARIO?? Like, "Wow - what if I do this 1/2 marathon and run the whole time?" or "What if I do this 1/2 marathon and walk some but still maintain a 6mph pace overall?".
Whatever it is that we fear, we usually make it 200x WORSE than it really is. We imagine the most awful situation and then that fear is magnified. By doing this, we are FEEDING THE FEAR.
I know this because I have done it.
GUESS WHAT? I'M DONE WITH THAT.
I told you kids, I put a face on fear in my life. Every time I realize that fear is creeping in and altering my decisions, preventing me from having a KICKASS LIFE, I visualize this certain person that I wish would move to Afghanistan and I imagine myself KICKING HIS A**.
It becomes quite fun. It's therapeutic.
I channel my inner Jason Statham like this:
I'm not going to LIMIT MY LIFE POTENTIAL by sitting here wondering "what if" and being SCARED. I have ALWAYS surprised myself with what I've been able to accomplish and what I've been able to endure. And this- all while still being a bit of a worry-wart-wimpy-pussy-cat-scared-of-whatifs. Amy really changed that about me. In fact, that's why if she was not married and we both were lesbians, I would totally marry her. But, in light of the fact that none of that is true, she has my platonic "I Love You As Much As I Love Starbucks" dedication. In fact, I might consider- giving up Starbucks if it would save Amy's life. Just temporarily of course, until she was out of harm's way.
So- yea, I have days when I don't "feel like it" with working out. I have days when I want to wimp out and give up. But guess what- my new attitude, my new "NO FEAR" mantra, has changed me. Once I recognize Mr. Fear in the house, I CRUSH HIM. And then I have another opportunity to KICK SOME SERIOUS A**. And I will.
In case you didn't get enough of Mr. Statham, he has a new movie coming out in January for a full-on YUM-Fest of Manolicious Butt Kicking Action:
Question of the Day: Are you with me?